I have never been a big birthday person as long as I can remember. I remember writing that in my post for my 24th birthday (you can read it here!).
To me 25 was always a huge thing, like you were a true adult. Which is funny when I say that to my parents because their comment back is, “isn’t getting married a bigger adult move?”.
Short answer is yes, but the long, Paige answer is no. Drew and I talk about the growth we have had together and as individuals these past few years post graduation, and boy we really have grown up! From moving across the country, starting our careers and really growing into ourselves, those years after graduation are so crucial! I recently had a huge life change which allowed me to take a breath and realize how fun my life is turning out to be!
There are a few things that I have realized about myself over the last year;
- My need to be constantly doing something is just part of who I am and that will never change
- Life truly does work in mysterious ways
- Allowing myself to make decisions whether it’s a good one or a bad one is worth the risk of not knowing what the outcome will be
- When 1 door closes an even better one opens (first hand, this has happened to me 5 times in the past year and it is really incredible how hard work, dedication and networking comes through!)
It’s funny for me to sit here and reflect on the 24th year of my life, because last year was a freaking round up of emotions, moving and growth. I have re-written this sentence 5 times and have decided to just put it in here. When you are 19 you think you know everything. When you are 20 you are unsure of what goals are achievable, and when you are 22 and out of college you are still on the high of being “an adult”. At 23, Drew and I got married, I had my first corporate job, I was diving into the freelance world and we had our first big Air Force move. At 24 we both were working full time jobs and moved across the country (again). We paid off a car, bought a second car and the hustle of work settled in. Year 25 is a big change for me. I decided it was really the year of doing things not because we needed the opportunity, but doing things because it felt right.
In February I sat back and re-read all my blog posts from the last year. In doing this I realized that not only my physical health had decreased by my mental health as well! My life needed to change. The one thing that I kept thinking of during my work day was my “happy time”, this is the period of my life when we were in Florida. I was freelancing for amazing companies, working with uplifting people and doing things during the day like taking my dog on a walk and reading new books every week. These are the things that got pushed aside when we moved. These unhealthy habits started to take a toll on what makes me, me and I realized it was time to change this. One thing of the many things I love about Drew is that he pushes me out of my comfort zone. He came to me and had a deep chat about my goals and needing to put myself first for once. To me this is a new concept. I am a giver, a nurturer and my love language is 100% giving all of myself and then some to make sure my family and friends are taken care of. I listened to my body, my mind and thought deeply about what goals I wanted to set for year 25.
25 is the start of being me, a warrior, a force and the best me I can be! Not a lot of people say this but, I am proud of who I am, the growth I have made in my adult life and the woman I am today. The challenges of life test me everyday, but how I handle these situations is something that I am proud of. When I wake up, I feel like I can accomplish anything and that I have my cheerleaders, Moose and Drew by my side to push me forward when I am tired or feeling down.
I am excited to see where this year takes me, my family and my life because shit, so far the positives in my life out weigh the negatives day in and day out!
Do you have goals for your birthday? DM me on instagram and let’s conquer the world together!